Ashes and Pause
Beckett was a fraud.
No company. No tenants. No money.
No obligation. No art. No mention. No hero.
No defense from shadow as an ally
By calling a bomb darkness or Blake
Or an impulse
Soot as imprint and blood
You shit on the floor
Because it takes your mumbling
Causeway to a cracked tooth
When you wander or sleep in an agenda
That door opening and closing in the dark
Without fingers or wind
Again and again
Anger in light
Scratched record in the dance music
Old voice in acetate
…A knife… A knife… A knife…
A butcher in the radius
An attack by a ghost whose entire body is also a fraud
Can become anything it wants to
When its skin comes off
Written in the language of bread as if it were a bed
Gathering evil as a shimmer in the static—
You were upset long before meeting Joyce.
Inappropriate laughter beneath the floor
A little tremor with a sailboat
And a clean wound
Read the history backwards
As an unfamiliar culture
Until it is interior in pieces
Back before embracing failure and sketch
To where Dublin was impervious
And could only be attacked by its preservation.
Tripwire in the imaginary sand with contempt
Breaking all those bones in a lion
As if it were a metaphor inside ambition
No hero. No woman could wait that long.
No way back. Say goodbye.
Cannibal in a mirage in Braille
Erasing one bullet at time
As a prayer to a target
Ashes in what takes too long to escape a mouth
Small coffin with big nails
It’s all mist longing for magic
J.J. Blickstein is a poet and former editor/publisher of Hunger Magazine & Press. Works as freelance copy editor, student and teacher of Chinese internal martial arts, and Tui Na (Accupressure) practice. Does not miss being a stone mason, loves good gin, gardening, herbal medicine, great music, art, film, a warm fire and good eats. Books in print include Barefoot on a Drawing of the Sun (Fish Drum Inc., 2006), a handmade artists’ book/CD collaboration with French painter, Jean-Claude Loubieres, titled Signs/Signe (Paris, France, 2007), Vision of Salt & Water (Bagatela Press, Mexico. 2002). In 2009, as part of a literary contingent, Blickstein journeyed to Cassis, France on a poet exchange and translation project sponsored by the Carmargo Foundation. POEM: Poets on an exchange mission (Fish Drum, Inc. 2009) is the resulting anthology. His work has appeared in numerous journals and anthologies. A new book-length manuscript or two awaits a home. He lives in Woodstock, NY.